I drove down to Douglas county (aka Hooterville) Sherriff's office yesterday to get the incident report from my arrest a few weeks ago, and I had no idea it was going to affect me the way it did. All the particulars of my arrest came flooding back to me like it was happening all over again. I started to hyperventilate, tremble, and I think I might have had a mini-anxiety attack as I was walking in the front door. I stumbled and had to sit down in the waiting room for a few minutes to regain my composure enough to go to the window and ask for the form I came to get. Its amazing that I reacted this way. I was very surprised that I got so upset. I only spent a few hours there (at the time of my arrest) but the memories were that of a POW returning to his place of capture. I remembered every little detail....every embarrassing moment, the handcuffs, the yelling, the human trash that I was thrown into a room with, everything. I couldnt wait to get the hell out of there and get on the road back to Atlanta. Last nite I had a nightmare of the arrest...I relived the whole thing over and over several times until I finally MADE myself wake up from the hellish dream. It was just as scary in a dream as it was in real life. Please gods and goddesses, watch over me and don't let me ever get into that situation again, EVER.......

(I faxed the report to my attorney this morning - my roommate found his fax machine in the attic and the fax went thru no problem...Now I'm waiting for my lawyer to get home, get the fax, and call me and tell me what his "plan" is. He said it will be good if the court date isnt for several months, and the fact that the incident report has NO specifics of my arrest on it is ALSO a VERY good thing.....just says "arrested for possession of less than one ounce...no particulars whatsoever - (GOD, I hope this is going to be painless, PLEASE let it be nothing more than a fine and a slap on my hand)